What is Content?

In January of 2017 the Lord gave me a word, content, I didn’t think much of it as I felt that I was content with what I had been given, and content in my life and wasn’t seeking anything beyond the blessings in front of me. Easy peasy.

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January 29th I signed up for my first international mission trip. The trip consisted of a group of medical professionals traveling to an orphanage. They wanted a photographer to capture their work. I would have to come up with the funds as this was a volunteer gig. The call was for the greater good and this was a seed the Lord had planted in me 10 years ago, an opportunity to capture the work of a mission team. The team, which spanned from 6 different states, was going to an orphanage in Guatemala(The Eagle’s Nest). I would be the only one from Kansas and I didn’t know anyone on the team, but, the orphanage was were my nephew had been adopted from in 2005. Guatemala closed down adoption to the USA around 2008.

Content…. in His abilities to provide opportunities.

In preparation for the trip I saved money from a few of my photo sessions to make my first deposit. As the second deposit came due, I was a bit nervous about having enough money, but I made a payment on faith that God would provide somehow, if not, then I probably shouldn’t go. 2 days after I made the “on faith” payment I received a print order for quite a few of my nature photos, enough to cover the entire second deposit! My husband and a few others felt called to donate money as well, yes I said husband, he runs a HVAC business and had been putting funds back to gift me… he truly is the sweetest man. The last and final amount was due and my local church donated the rest of the funds to the organization(The Orphan Door) and it was a done deal.

I’m reluctant to share this but I think I need to. in December of 2016 our daughter decided she wanted to go on a mission trip to Guatemala as well, with the local church youth. After interviews and being accepted to go on the trip she began her process to prepare for the trip to the same orphanage that I would be going to 2 weeks earlier. When our daughter signed up for the trip I had no idea that the opportunity for me to go was even in the cards. I knew I couldn’t go with the youth team as I had already booked a wedding to photograph the weekend they left. On January 15th her seed money was due. I felt it within my spirit to pay for more than just my daughter’s seed money, I paid not only our daughter’s but others as well. 2 weeks later I signed up to go to Guatemala on complete faith that the Lord would provide a financial way for me to go…… He did.

Content… in God’s abilities to provide funds…. The Lord funded my trip and my daughter’s trip, among many others.

In preparation for the trip, my goal was to prepare my heart to be broken, for I knew observing poverty would be hard for this mercy heart. The Lord spoke whispers over and over to me that my job was to observe the blessings in the hard, dark places, to SEE HOPE. One journal I had prior to leaving was this, “Shining bright is not a controlled burn, let the fire burn bright. (References: John 1:5, Matt 4:16, Ps 27:1, Rev 21:23) Be a light, trust Him, and then this:

We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair. We are hunted down, but never abandoned by God. We get knocked down, but we are not destroyed. 2 Cor 4:7-8 NLT

Leading up to the trip, our family had quite a bit of chaos, approximately 3 months of chaos. Teenage struggles mostly and work overload. The one thing I realized when I got to Guatemala was that my struggles were not that big, although they felt big at the time, they really were not.

Content… in His abilities to change perspective.

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The Trip

I had never flown in a plane by myself, yes, 41 years old and have always flown with someone I knew. Not only was I flying alone to Houston but I had never been to the Houston airport and I was meeting up with strangers. As you can imagine I was a bit fearful and nervous about this. 5AM I got on a plane from KC to Houston. I sat down next to a couple and decided that if I’m out of my comfort zone I mine-as-well attempt to make a friend. As I started speaking to the lady next to me she shares with me that she has been on 14 mission trips and was on her way to Honduras for a month. She had been in the Houston airport numerous times and was willing to walk me to my gate so I made it on time. We were a bit worried I might miss my flight as I barely had an hour to get to my gate and our flight was rerouted due to weather, we were running late. With no back up plan in place I went on faith and told her I was just going to trust God that he would get me there on time. Little did we know that the plane flew into the International terminal and it was a hop, skip and jump from where I needed to go. I gained a friend and a prayer warrior.

Content… in His abilities to provide guidance.

The next flight was upon me and now it was time to meet the team. My prayer on the plane was, “Let me see what you want me to see, help me to capture life, love, whatever you deem, even the hard stuff if necessary. Protect my family as I am away, and always. Please let all the luggage and travels on to the orphanage go well. Protect us Lord and guide us to be the hands and feet of you. Amen”

Stepping off of the plane

Overwhelmed is the word that comes to mind once in Guatemala City, as I was removed from the USA box. So much poverty, pollution, trash, yet in all of that, beautiful crops come forth and smiles of laughing children and a young boy stops to smile as he sees the camera. I am thankful, but I am ashamed. I am blessed yet humbled at this level of IMG_2479poverty. I asked the Lord to forgive me for not knowing my abundance. My problems are so small. Once out of the box, you can’t look at life the same. When I came back to the states I didn’t realise the effect it would have on me. I cried when I washed my hands in the bathroom sink and could brush my teeth with clean water. I cried in the gas station bathroom because it was clean and had toilet paper. I cried in the grocery store over the multitude of choices. I cried looking across the parking lot of a hotel, it was so clean. I could see the abundance and blessings over America. I had never seen it this way before. The resounding observation that I had while there was that many people in Guatemala are completely content with little, they would give away to their family and friends without a second thought. At the orphanage they served lunch to the children in high poverty, it was called “Manna”. One of my team members saw a child sneak out part of their meal and share it with their mother waiting for them outside.

Content… in the abundance He provides.

 

Over the next 5 days I witnessed 16 people who had never worked together before, most of us were strangers that came together, each with their own gifting. We loved on these kids and organized and worked together like a well oiled machine. Exams were done, classes were taught, life was shared together, relationships were built, prayers were said and some how God made all of us feel as if we had known each other for years at the end of our week. It was an absolute honor and miracle to witness.

Content… in His ability to bring the hands and feet of Christ together to serve.

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Throughout the days at the orphanage, many of us fought colds, toothaches, stomach bugs or even just bugs in general! Many of us faced fears of illness or emotional battles within or felt spiritually unsettled, yet we all got there safely and we all got home safely as we felt the protection of the Lord among us. We witnessed special needs children who had come leaps and bounds in their health. The team came up with plans to help others who may still be struggling physically or in other ways. Many times we see healing as only a physical aspect, but healing can be emotional, spiritual or physical… We joined together and prayed for each other, for the kids, for others outside the walls and the presence of God was felt.

Leaving was hard…. yet many of us felt that saying goodbye was temporary… for many will be coming back. So we trust the Lord in his ability to protect His children and bring restoration and healing in mind, body and spirit.

Content… in His protection and healing.

The 3 things that resonated over and over with our team was this:

Our Brokenness, God’s Calling, Our Obedience

Content… in our journey, His will and His abilities through us.

If you feel called, be obedient to it and be content in all of HIS abilities, not your own.

11 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:11-13

Isn’t God amazing?! Blessings.

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Is it Exhausting Being Nice?

I had someone say something to me recently that hit me like a brick. They may have twisted up their words and not meant it the way I heard it but it sure got me to thinking.
“Isn’t it exhausting pretending to be nice to people all day?”
First off, the thought of me pretending to being nice just made my stomach turn. Is that what people think? I’m pretending to be a nice person? We all have good days and bad. Am I always nice? No, ask my children or my ever so loving and patient husband.
I’m not pretending when I chose to be nice. It’s a choice and I would assume it is Christ in me who is really being the “nice”.
I’m learning to enjoy all relationships. In the past some seemed to drain me quite a bit, and they still can if I’m around massive amounts of people for hours on end. Can you relate? I also like alone time too. Time to rest and time to recharge. Relationships have been one of my biggest life struggles. It requires vulnerability, trust, giving and receiving. All relationships, whether it is with your mother, God, new friends, spouse, old friends, co-workers, family and on and on I can go, require effort, transparency, honesty and the fruit of the spirit. (Gal 5:22-24)
LOVE
JOY
PEACE
PATIENCE
KINDNESS
GOODNESS
FAITHFULNESS
GENTLENESS
SELF CONTROL.
THIS is what God calls us to do. Love one another. Christ cares about relationships so much. This is how we show His love, His KINDNESS, His “Niceness” to others.
Many struggle with control, some struggle with giving compliments, some struggle with receiving gifts/compliments, some are never happy looking in the mirror, some don’t like meeting new people, some are very untrusting and some are just angry and some are very uncomfortable in their skin….
I use to be all of these….
I am not a perfect person, what I know is I am a Child of God and I make mistakes daily. But I’ve chosen to be better, to be happier, to make an effort each day. With Christ I can be better. It’s not worth it to try to be in control, to know everything, to be critical or judgemental….
Choose laughter or choose anger. Both are outbursts of energy. What kind of energy do you want to give off, or absorb for that matter?
Live your life finding the ‘blessings all around you’. Love yourself because God made you and loves you, and most of all know that it’s ok to not be ok. We’re all a work in progress, each one on a different chapter, a different step, a different path. We all have struggles and we all have stories…
At this point in your story maybe you see all the blessings and maybe you can’t see any… but I challenge you to look, look hard… blessings are not always “things”. 6 years ago I started a list(inspired by 1000 Gifts by Ann Voskamp). A list compiled of thanks, of gifts. Things like learning to be thankful for dirty cloths, because it means I have cloths, a dirty table because we ate a meal together, sunrises and sunsets, plants and fragrance, and legs to walk with, and on and on we go…
I challenge you, look for the blessings, look for the gifts, even in the hard stuff.
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. ~James 1:17
Reset those negative thoughts toward yourself and towards others….
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Renew your mind, renew you, and be kind…. the Christ in you kind of kind….
Blessings.

My Life can Change the World or the World can Change my Life

There are times in our lives we face unwanted or unexpected change.

My recent whirlwinds(plural, yes plural) have caused me to evaluate who I really am. Through my struggles, through my fears, my pain, my weakness, who am I?

What am I really capable of?

What am I in the eyes of God?

Who am I?

Within my family and friends circle in the last 4 months I have seen more suffering that I have ever witnessed in my lifetime, all at one time. My heart is breaking for others, whether they are fighting cancer, struggling with losing a job, a recovering alcoholic, a teenager being pursued by a grown man, someone trying to heal from an abusive past, back, knee, leg injuries, financial pitfalls, suicide, marriages falling apart, loss of a loved one, loss of direction, depression, anxiety and the list goes on and on.

Too often we don’t realize the impact we can have on one another’s life, good or bad. Our words are not considered “of value” in our own minds many times, yet God sees them as a huge responsibility. My words can build up or tear down. My actions can be healthy or unhealthy.

Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it and indulge it will eat its fruit and bear the consequences of their words. ~Prov 18:21

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My life can change the world or the world can change my life. 

With God all things are possible…. we’ve all heard it…. do you BELIEVE it?

And Jesus looking upon them said to them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible. ~Matt 19:26

What am I really capable of? What am I not capable of? When we choose to let God become the captain of our ship, He will move mountains before you(Matt 17:20). He will pave the path(Isa 45:2)(1 Peter 1:7). I sit in my home, wondering how I could make a difference, my small circle of friends and family and my many walls I’ve built up over the years.

How can I, who lives behind walls make a difference?

Everytime I choose to share life, love, stories and experiences that the Lord has walked(and many times carried me) me through, I am making a difference. If you told me 4 years ago that I’d be speaking to people about emotions and the impact they have on our health, I would have laughed at you. “I don’t speak in front of people, I have stage fright! I would never do that!”

Yes, I wouldn’t, but God does!

Yet He uses us in our weakness for He is strong. I can, because He does. (2 Cor 12:9-10)

He has removed me from my comfort zone and thrown me into a state of flux, I MUST depend on Him to reach the hurting. I can’t do it alone. He is equipping me with more knowledge and understanding than I ever thought possible for this brain of mine. He is my knowledge and my wisdom.

In the eyes of God, I am His child. He sees me in my splendor, my Savior within me. He sees my potential and He is my biggest cheerleader. He sees me as a vessel for His message. He sees me apart from all of my flaws and sins. He sees me, just me apart from all of the pain, the heartache, the weakness, the fear, the doubt, He sees his Son in me. His perfect loving son who has placed within my heart his desires to help, to love, to know, to do what God asks of me.

Who am I? 

A Child of the One True King. I am a child of God.

The reason for the image below. If you didn’t know me, this is where you would find my heart, in my journals and in my paintings.

Find your own way to speak with the Lord and know that YOU are a child of God!

Blessings.

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Journalizing and Painting. Two intimate ways I work through emotions and speaking with God.

Sayings, Rumors, Stereotypes About Oilers… or More Importantly About ME!

new-oilsI am debunking a myth about essential oil users…. Apparently there is a saying, rumor, stereotype about “US”….

“They all eat organic.” Nope, we try to eat organic if it’s available.

“They are vegetarians.” Nope, not us.

“They are wealthy, they have the $ to spend on them.”  It depends on your definition of wealth… It could be wealthy of knowledge, peace, joy, love…. something to think about.

“They are hippies.” I’m not sure what the hippy definition even is....

“They were already in good health before they started using oils.” UMMMM read below!

“Oils don’t work unless you already have your eating habits and health in good conditions.” UMMM read below!!

OH MY HEAVENS….. Of course these answers are from me and my family and we are seasoned Young Living oilers, 4 years and going!

When I started using Young Living Essential oils it was right around the time my health and my daughter’s health was a disaster. I had been to many specialists for my GI issues and my daughter was going for allergy and dermatology problems.   My GI problems started around 2000. So did my daughter’s issues, she was 3 months old. 13 years of creams, shots, specialists, Hida Scans, CT Scans, ER visits, and meds, and meds and more meds.  I was at a point that I didn’t care how much money I was going to spend, we were going to get better… I wanted us both to be better. So I chose to reach out to a Naturopath Dr and every visit for the next year went on a credit card. Yep, that’s right.

She educated us on the importance of removing chemicals from our home and removing “said” lotion recommendations to homemade recipes, some included essential oils. Young Living soon became a staple in our house just for Thieves and Lemon alone… They replaced our cleaning supplies, ALL of them. The diffuser replaced the toxic candles and plug-ins and we began to get better. Supplements were added and we also started eating better. We chose to not eat out as much, and stop drinking so much soda, we cut sugar back. Yes we changed our diets and along with that we used oils too. 1 year after I reached out to the ND, my health had completely changed. I had no abdominal issues and if I had an upset tummy I’d use some Peppermint or Digize to support my digestive system. I was no longer on any meds, only supplements to replenish my depleted system, depleted in B12, B6, Omegas, V-C, V-A…. No wonder I was so tired!

It’s been 4 years since we chose to make the change to natural wellness. Today I only take maintenance supplements that support my overall wellness. I have more energy and clarity of mind at 41 years old than I ever had in my late 20s and early 30s. Our daughter was better within months. As a teenager we struggle with getting her to stay away from make-ups and the ever “loved” perfumes and for that, she struggles from time to time. She is very aware of her sensitivity to chemicals and foods. She is learning and we are encouraging her to make better choices.

Any change is better than NO change…

You can chalk it up however you would like, 25% change, 50% change, 90% change…. remove chemicals from your environment, even a few removed is better than none. Any small amount of change is worth it. You are investing in your future, in your quality of life. The more I learn about chemicals, chemistry, epigenetics, emotions that are stored in our bodies that can make us sick, and on and on I could go…. All I know is we have choices… we have options, we have resources like never before. My passion for education in Natural Living comes from a place of struggle; struggles physically, emotionally and spiritually. I offer the knowledge that has been taught to me to share with you and I ask you to just make one change. Start with one thing. Turn a bottle over and read the label, read the warnings, read a book, throw a candle away, go for a walk, live free.

For more information on young living visit: https://oily.life/emilybarnes/

Blessings.

How many References to Essential Oils or Aromatic Plants are there in the Bible?

In the Bible there are over 600 references to essential oils and/or aromatic plants.

How many Times is the word Incense Mentioned in the Bible? What Does it Mean?

Incense is mentioned 68 times in the Bible – where 54 of these instances the oils of Frankincense, Myrrh, and Galbanum referenced. Incense actually means “lebanoh” which in those times was frankincense.

What is the Real Meaning of Anointing?

The Hebrew word for anointing means to rub or massage a person with oil. This meant using healing oils of the Bible, not vegetable oil to bless that person on a physical and spiritual basis. True anointing is another lost art and science. Jesus’ feet were anointed with oil several times in the Bible with Spikenard (see Luke 7:36-50 and John 12:1-8).

~ from Dr David Stewart’s book Healing Oils of the Bible

A Prayer for Our People

IMG_8320Today I pray for the people of the United States of America, during this transition my prayers are fervent. Join me.

Apart from you Lord, we are lost. Too much trust has been put in man/woman, not in You Father. In GOD we trust, such a simple yet profound concept that we all seem to struggle with, due to lack of faith and lack of patience, which ironically come from the spirit within, from You. (Gal 5:22-23)

Oh if we could only empty our souls of control, selfishness and anger and allow Christ’s love to shine through. We get in Your way to often, yet how dare I think You cannot accomplish what needs to be done regardless of our choices. We just seem to take the hard road. I pray that we may understand and grasp the freedom that comes in submitting to Your will and trusting only in You. Cleanse these souls Lord so that we can live out your will for our lives.

Yahweh Shalom, we are weak and selfish. We have fallen and failed you time and time again, yet your patience with us is undeserved. I plead for our country, our people that we can unite again and become a strong nation founded on trust in You. With You All is Possible. You are our strength, our peace, our joy and our love. Apart from You we will always struggle, for we cannot be our own strength, peace, joy and love. Heal our lands, lead our powers to be and unite this people. Lord, this is your land, your people, all things are yours. We have failed you a million times with our selfishness and greed. We may feel unsure about our leaders, but I do not feel unsure about the ultimate Leader, YOU. Lord forgive us, help our people, our leaders to see the errors of their ways, help them to turn back to you. Rebuild our government to sit on your shoulders. Help them to lead the people. Guide us Lord in this fallen world. Bring the good to light, cast out the darkness and illuminate this place, ignite Your peace within us. (Is 9:6-7)

You are the beginning and you are the end. Thank you Abba for the blessings you have poured on us that we do not deserve. Guide us to live loved and live a life honorable with You. Your mercies and love never falter.  You are our peace. 

Thank you Father, Amen.

After Every Storm There Comes a Rainbow

It’s easy to tell someone to “Never give up!” It’s another thing to live it.

I can remember many times of failure in my life; getting fired, being put on probation for bad grades, getting in trouble with the law, messing up relationships… the list could go on and on.

When I became a parent, my heart said, “Don’t ever let your child feel that way! Protect them from that pain!”

Friends, it’s inevitable. Our kids will fail at some point and it will hurt.

As a parent it’s easy for me to preach my story, and tell my kids, “Everyone fails, you just have to get back up, keep going! The most successful people in the world have failed more than any of us!” and on and on I go…. When a child goes through failure, when your child goes through failure….. it’s hard. I see the devastation and disappointment in their eyes, the pain of the title “Failure”. And I reminisce on my pain, and all I want to do is throw it in the trash for them, take it away and wipe the slate clean. But I can’t…. Part of me wants to sweep it under the rug….

NO.

It’s easy to say all the right things…. But maybe it’s more important to acknowledge the moment for what it is.

Face the failure…. with them.

So many times I want to swoop in and fix everything. I don’t want my kids to feel pain………..but I wonder, if they need to. See their hurt and let them hurt. Encourage, but just be. Just be there, and consider what it’s like to be in their shoes…..

Acknowledge the moment instead of sweeping it under the rug like it never happened, “for what will Sally say? and what will my friends and family think? and what does this mean?” How many times have I came up with the next plan for their lives? How many times have I came up with Plan B? I can’t keep doing this…

It’s messing up their process to progress through failing.

I have realized something through my child’s hurt…

Kids these days have so much more pressure on them than we did. Social media can destroy a persons caricature in 3 seconds by a video, photo, comment, tweet, etc… Or an inbox message that is cruel and cuts to their heart that is trying so hard to recover from a mistake. Oh how they care so much of what others think of them, too much…..

If we would all stop pretending we have perfect lives we certainly might be able to help each other out a bit more. Be real. Face this mess of a world we live in head on and know that every single one of us has failed at some point. Everyone of us has struggled and everyone of us has a choice….. to grow or wither.

Wallowing in failure does no one any good. We face it, we learn from it and we move on…..one step at a time. No one said the process would be easy or fast, it’s just one day at a time. We face it, for facing it means we acknowledge the importance of this lesson, this moment, this course correction, this path change, and we take it for what it is.

A moment of growth, painful none the less, but growth.

My flesh and my heart fails, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Ps 73:26

I’m done pretending. God is my strength through all, through failures and through successes. He is all we need, He is all THEY need. If we could look at failures as course corrections I believe quite a bit of the pain would subside. If my life is shifted in a different direction can I trust that He has a good reason for it? Can I embrace the change that comes? It may not look like what I had planned in my head, but if I can see it as a blessing, regardless of the failure, then maybe it wouldn’t seem so devastating.

Face the failure, trust the change, and grow. Your rainbow is coming, the storm will pass.

Blessings on difficult stuff.

Why Trust Anyone!?

I’m fairly certain of this statement: Once scarred, trust is a life long climb up and down to get to a point of freedom.

If you Google “Trust Quotes” this is what you will find… I am not condoning that these messages are the way to live, in fact most of them are wall builders.

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I’m not going to vomit my past all over this page today, because I’m at a crossroad.

Pain + Pain + Sorrow = Suspicion of everyone = DON’T TRUST ANYONE

You see, I know without a shadow of a doubt that I have spent almost all 40+ years of my life being suspicious of life, of people, of God, lacking trust in everyone and full of unbelief. I have spent my life waiting for the next bottom to fall out, yet I have spend numerous years studying God’s Word and diving into his knowledge and understanding, yet I still have unbelief. I doubt his reasons… and in the rubble another revelation is found. I didn’t even know I was living this way, I never saw myself as a pessimist. A realist definitely, but I think this is deeper than a title of; glass half-full or glass half-empty.

A small literature lesson:

TRUST as a verb in a standard dictionary: believe in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of. ((I guess I’ve always seen trust as an action, a doing, so I’m going with the verb definition.)) 

TRUST in the Hebrew translation; בֶּ֫טַח betach, security, to be reliant, be unsuspecting, secure.  <<<< AKA NOT SUSPICIOUS!

I sat in a room of parents and teenagers yesterday discussing an upcoming missions trip to Guatemala that my daughter is going on. They sat us together in small groups and asked us 3 questions. What do you Hope, Fear and Expect for your child on this trip?

My Classic answers:

Hope: that her faith grows and relationships with peers and God deepens.

Fear: that she’s going to be a gazillion miles away and I can’t get to her fast enough if she needs me.

Expect: That YOU keep her safe.

As I listened to the rest of the adults share their hearts and kids share their concerns I noticed something….. the kids and some parents were EXPECTING change, depth, knowledge… etc…

I wonder how many of us see expectations different?

It was at that very moment God tugged hard on my heart. Whispers of, “You need to trust Me with her safety, not people.”

 

Our lack of or plethora of TRUST IS A DIRECT REFLECTION OF OUR EXPECTATIONS……

 

How long have I been getting this wrong? I thought of the past 5 years of studies, the day after day of diving into God’s Word, having revelation after revelation about little misunderstandings that needed tweaked. This was a big tweak. Have I spent my whole life getting this wrong? Have a never expected God to do anything, change, depth?

The one thing I have had is expectation in prayer. I do expect him to hear and I do expect him to work miraculously in lives. So I have trusted Him in prayer. (check 1 point, me) I believe this part(prayer part) of my life has been a constant hint that something was off. In prayer I have always felt at peace and an amazing connection, I am open to His will in those moments. But I must LIVE open to His will.

You see my trust button was broken long ago. My expectations were not expectations… they were demands, they were commands, they were coming from fear and they have mostly been directed to people. 

“I expect you to keep my child safe, I expect you to be a good man. I expect you to love me!”

Or should it be….

“I expect my child to be moved by God, I expect Christ to shine through a man, I expect God to love me because I know He loves me…”

So I sit here before you for the first day in my adult life looking at life through new glasses, you see I was wearing the wrong pair. God is showing me that I should expect His intervention in my life and others constantly, I should expect change and expect God’s strength to supply me in my times of need and that I need to shed the doubts and stop with the delusional expectations with a side order of untrust.

TRUST: To believe in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength …… of GOD!

Trust in (Believe in the reliability, truth, ability, the strength of) the LORD with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.… Proverbs 3:5       ( )-added by me

I believe a rather pivotal moment in a person’s life is when they decide to expect change within them-self, expect God’s strength and shed the doubt and suspicion.

Dear suspicion/doubt, I’m breaking up with you.
Love, a child of The Father of Truth

Let’s climb…

img_9674Into your hands I commit my spirit; redeem me, O LORD, the God of truth. Psalm 31:5